I wish she with me now.
She is the first one who always stay besides me when I at worst and best.
She is the first friend who see me crying so hard.
She knows when I am in the bad mood.
She remember the things I like and dislike.
She understand why I hate to be teased with him, as she knows I'm struggling to not fall in love with him.
Unfortunately, in 5 years, excluding the high school period, I started to fall in love with him without I realised it.
I fight for 5 years to not fall in love with him. I denied my feeling everytime our friends teased me. I look cool outside, yet, I feel someone stab my heart.
And yes, I can feel the knife stuck in my heart now. It is real.
It's damn so hurt - its like a thunder hit you in a blink of eyes.
If she is here, she will comfort me as much as she can.
Azida, I miss you badly.
I really really miss you.
I need a shoulder, your shoulder.
When can we be together?
Sooner?
Al-Fatihah, Nurul Azida binti Mansor.
Eternity love,
Alia 💞